Monday, July 12, 2021

It's me, I'm Felix. I've come home, I'm so cold

 A few weeks ago, I was listening to music on YouTube, as I often do, and one of the Kate Bush Wuthering Heights videos came on. It was immediately familiar, though I didn't quite know why. As I watched the video I could see Felix doing the choreography in my head along with it. I started to sob uncontrollably.

I remembered that years earlier, Felix had made a video to this song. I was sure of it. Felix loved Kate Bush, and there was something so "Felix" about the song (aside from it being the ghost of Cathy from Wuthering Heights outside Heathcliff's window).

I searched my Gmail and found a Chat from July 12, 2012 that referenced the video I remembered. I also found a Chat from July 21, 2012 in which Felix asked if his friend Liz had watched the video, and talked about one to Metallica that he had made around the same time. But I couldn't find where Felix actually shared the video with me. 

Ever since the day the video came on YouTube, I've been doing the choreography to both the video with Kate Bush in red and the video with Kate Bush in white. I have dreams of doing a flashmob at Felix's graves, and a dance piece to it with Felix's friend Patrick. Most of all, though, I want to find the video Felix made one day back in 2012.



Here is the Chat from July 12, 2012:

Felix: aw man :(
 me: i know
  the woburn one never called back
 Felix: I'm such a dork, I've been making my own music video for a kate bush song
  all day
8:51 PM me: so are you not doing the art director gig for the movie?
  i had a really good brownie from open table
  chocolate caramel pecan
  made by dancing deer
8:52 PM Felix: dancing deer is SO good
  I love thier baked goods
 me: even after the 'best but' date
  'best buy' !
8:53 PM argh
 Felix: carmel never goes bad, haha
 me: true
  even when ou find it stuck all over the kids' bedroom floor!
8:54 PM Felix: wait, have you done that?
  jk :)
 me: yes, i just had to get sugar daddy from all over the kids' floor
8:55 PM Felix: uh oh
8:56 PM me: did i tell you another naughty quail got out yesterday?
  the other quail this time
 Felix: where did it get off to?
 me: it was standing on toys in the living room
 Felix: lol
 me: chirping and cooing
  to be put back
  he was thirsty
8:57 PM Felix: crazy thing
 me: i know
  it's so funny that it was 'calling' for me to get him
9:01 PM Felix: yeah, like: "look what I did"
9:02 PM me: yeah- almost like laughing at me
  i didn't even see him at first
  i just heard him
9:03 PM and i thought it was really loud birds outside
 Felix: are they getting very much bigger?
9:04 PM me: no
 Felix: good
 me: they're the same size
  i have to put jack to sleep now
  ttyl
9:05 PM Felix: okay
  im going to send you my video in a bit
 me: hopefully it won't take too long
  cool!